4/5/2017: celeste and max

I watched the emotional ending of Big Little Lies yesterday. It was the first time I watched the show longer than a just couple minutes. Virtually all of my TV watching now is my deflection research, where I do not allow myself to get into what I’m watching and instead I am trying to establish what's really happening with the intelligence that's utilizing the TV to hypnotize and use humans.

But during this session I decided to watch a bit of the show and allow myself to connect with the content. Here is an explanation I found online of what happened during the episode:

Max is the son of Perry who was married to Celeste (Nicole Kidman) and Perry was abusing Celeste, and he also raped Jane, and impregnated Jane with Ziggy.

I spent time watching the final scene unfold and actually got emotional. The show ended with them all on a beach, a very common metaphor in movies and shows of people starting over/being reborn.

So, it’s the VERY NEXT DAY and I’m expecting a package from Fedex. Normally my packages are delivered directly to my door and I just got a notification that the package was delivered. So I look on the porch outside my door and nothing is there.

I decide to peek further down the back walkway just to see if they left it at the side gate and I notice a bunch of boxes down there and really have no idea if mine is there. So I'm forced to go look.

As I’m looking at the boxes, which are many, they're all for a couple who appear to be new neighbors, since I don't recognize the names (I’ve lived here for 8 months). The name on the boxes is “Celeste and Max Barrett” and the boxes appear to be moving boxes that were shipped to them because they're moving in to the community of 6 townhouses I live in.

So, the day after watching 15 minutes of Big Little Lies, where two of the main characters are named Celeste and Max and are actually mother and son on the show, this insane synchronicity is happening. I ponder all kinds of metaphorical, mystical explanations on what’s going on, because I know this reality is absurd and ON PURPOSE.

Actor Nicholas Crovetti is Max in the show, which means there is ALSO an interesting parallel between the names Nicole (who plays Celeste) and Nicholas (who plays Max) (Nicole, Nicholas, pretty close to one another). Not to mention this kid looks like he could be Nicole Kidman's actual son or some clone of her in male form:

Now it gets even more interesting/absurd. Here is a screenshot of security camera footage I just watched of this "real" guy named Max bringing their boxes in and he’s a blonde guy with longish hair JUST like the kid who plays Max on the show. You could easily say this guy could be the same kid at an older age:

What the hell is really happening here?

While I’m pondering it all, “I can’t live with or without you” is being sung in my headphones and because everything in my reality is synced, I speculate that somehow these new neighbors actually represent the characters from the show and that Celeste (the mother) still wants Perry (the father), even though he abused her and is now dead, and the only way she can still be with him is if he magically becomes/transforms into Max, (the son), who happens to also be abusive, based on what the show revealed.

Once Perry becomes/goes into Max’s body, Celeste will then act as his mother to help raise him to be a better man. Somehow they’ve come to life in my reality in different forms/a different relationship because magically this entire thing parallels my life or some past life.

(Look, I know some of my existential theories are a little bit insane, but don’t even pay attention to those parts of these entries. The reason these things are happening is unknown to me and I am throwing out very metaphysical possibilities for what is going on.)

I'm not sure that this reflects "the real" Celeste and Max that are in my reality, as they are a married couple (not mother and son). Although, when I did eventually meet them in person, Max definitely seemed gay to me, so maybe the marriage is just a front:

Another weird parallel is that Big Little Lies is about the parents of children who are all in 1st grade. One of my exes had an abortion, with us in agreement, in November of 2008. Our baby would have been born in August of 2009. This means that right when this show was being filmed, our child would have been in 1st grade, like all the kids on the show, including Max.

Here is a video I made just for friends/family which includes a clip at the end with me wearing my go pro camera hat. I believe I was being set up by the universe/AI to interact with my new neighbors, Celeste and Max, who I hadn’t met yet.

The set of 6 buildings I live in is referred to as the Sunset 6. But the key to all of this, and to most of the absurd nonsense that happens in my life, is that building is jokingly referred to as the “666” (sounds like Sunset 6). Because I know everything here happens on purpose and that my reality is being manipulated, clearly it has something to do with my hellish, current existence: